Monday, March 29, 2010
“That summer I was 11”
Summer Poem
Swimming every day,
Out in the pond; in the hot summer sun.
Me and my best friend,
My brothers and sisters too.
Mom watches us, till Dad’s home from work.
He takes over; we can finally take our life jackets off.
Mom goes by the house to cook hamburgers on the grill
Locks little kids in the gate with their baby pool.
All having fits; they wanna swim with the big kids.
Competitions for who could jump the furthest,
And the biggest splash; Dad being the judge.
So much fun.
Me and my best friend grab hands, jump off the dock together.
Climb up the ladder; run and jump off one after another this time.
Backwards jump, twirl, cannon ball.
Swim to the middle with boogie boards,
See who can stand on theirs longest.
Then we’d attempt swimming to the bottom, bringing up muck as proof.
Time to dry off; go in the gate with the other kids,
Swing on the swings for a few minutes; then come in for dinner.
What fun days; that summer I was 11
Swimming every day,
Out in the pond; in the hot summer sun.
Me and my best friend,
My brothers and sisters too.
Mom watches us, till Dad’s home from work.
He takes over; we can finally take our life jackets off.
Mom goes by the house to cook hamburgers on the grill
Locks little kids in the gate with their baby pool.
All having fits; they wanna swim with the big kids.
Competitions for who could jump the furthest,
And the biggest splash; Dad being the judge.
So much fun.
Me and my best friend grab hands, jump off the dock together.
Climb up the ladder; run and jump off one after another this time.
Backwards jump, twirl, cannon ball.
Swim to the middle with boogie boards,
See who can stand on theirs longest.
Then we’d attempt swimming to the bottom, bringing up muck as proof.
Time to dry off; go in the gate with the other kids,
Swing on the swings for a few minutes; then come in for dinner.
What fun days; that summer I was 11
"Blah, Blah, Blah!"
Tension Poem
Younger sibling into trouble.
Mom’s screaming, over reacting.
Grounded forever, everything’s taken away.
None of my business, right?
Wrong—it is my business.
Well, I make it mine.
Mom has her favorites, it’s quite obvious.
I can’t just sit back, say nothing,
Act like it doesn’t bother me.
I see wrong, have to do what feels right.
Mom hates that I do this,
Put myself right in the middle,
Dropping a bomb,
Creating an even bigger dispute.
Anxiety builds up, frustration focused on me now.
Screams at the top of her lungs,
Apparently my opinion wasn’t asked,
I complicated the situation,
Blamed for excess commotion.
In attempt to explain my feelings
She doesn’t make an effort to listen.
All I hear is blah, blah, blah!
Goes on and on agitating me,
Until she digs deep enough
Under my skin.
Younger sibling into trouble.
Mom’s screaming, over reacting.
Grounded forever, everything’s taken away.
None of my business, right?
Wrong—it is my business.
Well, I make it mine.
Mom has her favorites, it’s quite obvious.
I can’t just sit back, say nothing,
Act like it doesn’t bother me.
I see wrong, have to do what feels right.
Mom hates that I do this,
Put myself right in the middle,
Dropping a bomb,
Creating an even bigger dispute.
Anxiety builds up, frustration focused on me now.
Screams at the top of her lungs,
Apparently my opinion wasn’t asked,
I complicated the situation,
Blamed for excess commotion.
In attempt to explain my feelings
She doesn’t make an effort to listen.
All I hear is blah, blah, blah!
Goes on and on agitating me,
Until she digs deep enough
Under my skin.
"I didn't mean it"
Confessions Poem
Upset. Angry. Scared. Hurt.
An abundance of feelings bottled up inside.
So full, the bottle was ready to burst.
My body could no longer hold in all of the unexpressed emotions.
Then the words overflowed,
Spilled from my mouth,
“I hate you.”
Unable to face your expression,
I looked away, hid from everything.
But unexpectedly crisis awakened me.
We’ve been separated
Can’t see you. Can’t talk to you.
My entire body aches, memories of my words and actions replay in my head.
Can’t wait much longer though.
To give you a hug&tell you
I miss you,
I don’t hate you,
I love you.
Upset. Angry. Scared. Hurt.
An abundance of feelings bottled up inside.
So full, the bottle was ready to burst.
My body could no longer hold in all of the unexpressed emotions.
Then the words overflowed,
Spilled from my mouth,
“I hate you.”
Unable to face your expression,
I looked away, hid from everything.
But unexpectedly crisis awakened me.
We’ve been separated
Can’t see you. Can’t talk to you.
My entire body aches, memories of my words and actions replay in my head.
Can’t wait much longer though.
To give you a hug&tell you
I miss you,
I don’t hate you,
I love you.
My Great Revenge
What I Would Do Poem
If you don’t wanna be here for me anymore, then fine.
Do what you want.
And see if I care.
Go ahead, I dare you.
It won’t bother me a bit.
But oh are you going to rue this day.
As I am planning my revenge to its finest…
I would start off by sneaking into your room.
I would text your boyfriend, breaking up with him. I would lie and say you never even liked him and were only using him to get back at your ex.
Then I would go onto your computer, and change your myspace password to something you’d never guess.
Oh, but first I would change your layout to something totally embarrassing, how does Barney sound?
And I would take off your Justin Bieber music and change it to Barney’s theme song. Perfect.
And I would take a hammer out of Dad’s barn and smash your cell phone into a thousand pieces. You really should thank me, I mean I am giving your fingers a break and preventing arthritis.
Next I would break your hair straightener in half, and hide mine. Guess you’ll have to go to school looking like crap.
Once you’ve fallen asleep I would go into your backpack and rip every single homework assignment into itty bitty pieces, so tiny it’d be impossible to put back together. I’m sorry so much of your time has now gone to waste.
And I would throw all of your clothes into the dryer and shrink them a little bit each time after wash so you think you’re gaining weight.
When you’re not home, I’d unlock your bedroom door and let all the little kids into your room to tear apart. Your room will be trashed: bed unmade, clothes out of the drawers, everything just everywhere.
When you want a ride somewhere, I’d refuse. And if mom makes me, then I would embarrass you so bad that you’d wish you had just cancelled your plans.
I would wake you up for school in the morning super extra early and would tell you you’re running late.
I would tell you what to do all the time, even more than usual; bossing you around as if I’m your mother. I could care less if you listen, what matters is I’m aggravating you.
I would go outside late at night and tap on your bedroom window so you’d think someone was coming to get you. Then I’d come running in the house laughing so hard you could hear and know it was me.
And I would encourage Mom to stop buying junk food that you love so much.
So instead of having Oreos for snack, you can pack some carrot sticks.
When I’m supposed to babysit, I’d say I need your help. That way you can’t go out and hang with your friends.
I would go in your bedroom and watch TV, talk, and whatever else bothers and annoys you so that you can’t get your homework done.
I would make sure you don’t get your perfect 4.0 GPA.
If you don’t wanna be here for me anymore, then fine.
Do what you want.
And see if I care.
Go ahead, I dare you.
It won’t bother me a bit.
But oh are you going to rue this day.
As I am planning my revenge to its finest…
I would start off by sneaking into your room.
I would text your boyfriend, breaking up with him. I would lie and say you never even liked him and were only using him to get back at your ex.
Then I would go onto your computer, and change your myspace password to something you’d never guess.
Oh, but first I would change your layout to something totally embarrassing, how does Barney sound?
And I would take off your Justin Bieber music and change it to Barney’s theme song. Perfect.
And I would take a hammer out of Dad’s barn and smash your cell phone into a thousand pieces. You really should thank me, I mean I am giving your fingers a break and preventing arthritis.
Next I would break your hair straightener in half, and hide mine. Guess you’ll have to go to school looking like crap.
Once you’ve fallen asleep I would go into your backpack and rip every single homework assignment into itty bitty pieces, so tiny it’d be impossible to put back together. I’m sorry so much of your time has now gone to waste.
And I would throw all of your clothes into the dryer and shrink them a little bit each time after wash so you think you’re gaining weight.
When you’re not home, I’d unlock your bedroom door and let all the little kids into your room to tear apart. Your room will be trashed: bed unmade, clothes out of the drawers, everything just everywhere.
When you want a ride somewhere, I’d refuse. And if mom makes me, then I would embarrass you so bad that you’d wish you had just cancelled your plans.
I would wake you up for school in the morning super extra early and would tell you you’re running late.
I would tell you what to do all the time, even more than usual; bossing you around as if I’m your mother. I could care less if you listen, what matters is I’m aggravating you.
I would go outside late at night and tap on your bedroom window so you’d think someone was coming to get you. Then I’d come running in the house laughing so hard you could hear and know it was me.
And I would encourage Mom to stop buying junk food that you love so much.
So instead of having Oreos for snack, you can pack some carrot sticks.
When I’m supposed to babysit, I’d say I need your help. That way you can’t go out and hang with your friends.
I would go in your bedroom and watch TV, talk, and whatever else bothers and annoys you so that you can’t get your homework done.
I would make sure you don’t get your perfect 4.0 GPA.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
My Life Today
Today is March 25, 2010. My life seems changes pretty frequently, that's just how it works. Many times when things seem to be improving, that doens't seem to last very long at all;the good turning the opposite way. But life is a roller coaster, full of excitment. There's some fear involved too, but it is overcomed when you go upside down on that roller coaster and are relieved that it's over.
No matter how bad things may seem, there are always good things to look at in your life. At home, things aren't perfect. Trust me. Wow, what an understatement. Things are so far from being considered perfect, it's hard for me to even explain in words. But I have a family that I love more than anything, my siblings mean the world to me. A lot of days at some point I end up in a down mood, but my little brother or baby sister can make me feel better. By simply giving me a hug around my legs, or running up to me when I get home, it just brightens up my day. Yesterday I wasn't having a very good day. I walked through the room and my little brother randomly says "I love you Christina," for no reason at all. I guess he could just tell I was havinga bad day, how sweet is that. :)
No matter how bad things may seem, there are always good things to look at in your life. At home, things aren't perfect. Trust me. Wow, what an understatement. Things are so far from being considered perfect, it's hard for me to even explain in words. But I have a family that I love more than anything, my siblings mean the world to me. A lot of days at some point I end up in a down mood, but my little brother or baby sister can make me feel better. By simply giving me a hug around my legs, or running up to me when I get home, it just brightens up my day. Yesterday I wasn't having a very good day. I walked through the room and my little brother randomly says "I love you Christina," for no reason at all. I guess he could just tell I was havinga bad day, how sweet is that. :)
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Life's No Fairytale, Picture Poem
Life's No Fairytale
Once upon a time, I was happy
The smiles, the laughs, were all so real
Laughing together, those smiles seemed so everlasting
We were together
Never imagined anything else
Once upon a time, I was scared
Terrified of everything
Of what might happen next, aware that anything could happen at any moment
I tried to help, but couldn’t hold on
I wasn’t strong enough, wasn’t big enough, I’m sorry
Frightened both inside and out
I don’t know what to do
Once upon a time, I was hopeless
Anger was the only feeling flowing through my mind
Nothing is right anymore
Everything is wrong
Everything is messed up
There’s no going back
Nothing will ever be okay
Don’t tell me it will, you don’t know
Once upon a time, I feel broken
You are gone, for now anyways
They came and took you away
I didn’t even get to say goodbye
It feels like you’re gone forever
No one knows when you’ll be back
I know how much you miss me, you think about me all the time
After everything all I ask them for is a hug, but they say no
Once upon a time, I felt helpless
Nothing I do seems to matter anymore
My words are only whispers in the wind
Having no meaning to anyone
No one will listen, no one seems to care
But I continue to cry,
Hoping someone will reach out
Once upon a time, I was happy
The smiles, the laughs, were all so real
Laughing together, those smiles seemed so everlasting
We were together
Never imagined anything else
Once upon a time, I was scared
Terrified of everything
Of what might happen next, aware that anything could happen at any moment
I tried to help, but couldn’t hold on
I wasn’t strong enough, wasn’t big enough, I’m sorry
Frightened both inside and out
I don’t know what to do
Once upon a time, I was hopeless
Anger was the only feeling flowing through my mind
Nothing is right anymore
Everything is wrong
Everything is messed up
There’s no going back
Nothing will ever be okay
Don’t tell me it will, you don’t know
Once upon a time, I feel broken
You are gone, for now anyways
They came and took you away
I didn’t even get to say goodbye
It feels like you’re gone forever
No one knows when you’ll be back
I know how much you miss me, you think about me all the time
After everything all I ask them for is a hug, but they say no
Once upon a time, I felt helpless
Nothing I do seems to matter anymore
My words are only whispers in the wind
Having no meaning to anyone
No one will listen, no one seems to care
But I continue to cry,
Hoping someone will reach out
Monday, March 1, 2010
1O Things I've Realized
I’ve come to realize…
I’ve come to realize you should always just be
yourself. No one should be afraid or ashamed.
I’d rather people hate the real me than
love a fake. I’ve come to realize you should
be careful what you say and shouldn’t say
things you don’t mean. If they come out on
accident they will never be forgotten
especially if it was said to the people you love.
Just say sorry. I’ve come to realize anything
can happen at any given moment. Never
leave loved ones with hurtful words. Those
words could be the last you never know when
you might see them again. I’ve come to
realize happiness should be your overall
goal in life. Don’t make choices that will
make you dread getting out of bed every
morning. I’ve come to realize that if you love
someone you will never leave them behind
or give up on them. I’ve come to realize
there’s not much point in having regrets,
instead try and make the best out of things.
Life should be lived to its fullest. Make your
own choices and live the life you’ve always
wanted. Don’t let anyone else live it for
you. I’ve come to realize sometimes it’s better
to follow your heart rather than your head.
Do what’s right; books and rules are not
always correct. I’ve come to realize there’s no
such thing as a bad person. Maybe it’s the
bad memories and things that happen in
someone’s life that create that bad inside and
sometimes the bad is so powerful it covers up
the good. I know every single person is
amazing and capable of doing anything they
set their mind to. Follow your dreams and
let them become reality. I’ve come to
realize that “hate” is a very powerful word
maybe even the strongest of all. Usually when
someone says the words “I hate you” they
don’t mean it, I’ve done it myself. I hate no
one. I’ve come to realize that life isn’t fair.
I don’t believe everything happens for a
reason. Bad things have happened and I can’t
find a why behind it. Remember to move on
from the past but never forget, and there’s no
such thing as a mistake, just a challenge.
I’ve come to realize you should always just be
yourself. No one should be afraid or ashamed.
I’d rather people hate the real me than
love a fake. I’ve come to realize you should
be careful what you say and shouldn’t say
things you don’t mean. If they come out on
accident they will never be forgotten
especially if it was said to the people you love.
Just say sorry. I’ve come to realize anything
can happen at any given moment. Never
leave loved ones with hurtful words. Those
words could be the last you never know when
you might see them again. I’ve come to
realize happiness should be your overall
goal in life. Don’t make choices that will
make you dread getting out of bed every
morning. I’ve come to realize that if you love
someone you will never leave them behind
or give up on them. I’ve come to realize
there’s not much point in having regrets,
instead try and make the best out of things.
Life should be lived to its fullest. Make your
own choices and live the life you’ve always
wanted. Don’t let anyone else live it for
you. I’ve come to realize sometimes it’s better
to follow your heart rather than your head.
Do what’s right; books and rules are not
always correct. I’ve come to realize there’s no
such thing as a bad person. Maybe it’s the
bad memories and things that happen in
someone’s life that create that bad inside and
sometimes the bad is so powerful it covers up
the good. I know every single person is
amazing and capable of doing anything they
set their mind to. Follow your dreams and
let them become reality. I’ve come to
realize that “hate” is a very powerful word
maybe even the strongest of all. Usually when
someone says the words “I hate you” they
don’t mean it, I’ve done it myself. I hate no
one. I’ve come to realize that life isn’t fair.
I don’t believe everything happens for a
reason. Bad things have happened and I can’t
find a why behind it. Remember to move on
from the past but never forget, and there’s no
such thing as a mistake, just a challenge.
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