Locks, Unlocks

Keys
There’s so many, I forget what they’re for
House key—protects us; the people I love
Car key—a sense of freedom
Business key—represents trust, responsibility
Diary key—secrets kept untold, hidden inside
Key to my heart—hopeful, caring, full of love;
Yet patient, particular, afraid of hurting
Keys—locks, unlocks; opens, closes
But be careful; don’t lose your keys
Wouldn’t want them getting into the wrong hands

Never wanted to hurt you

Earlier our little girl rode her tricycle as I walked beside her down the street
We walked by the park
The park we used to love taking long walks on together at night time,
No one else was around so could just be the two of us
The one that holds so many great memories,
But also carries the memory of the scariest day of my life

I haven’t been back to the park since that day
She asked me if we could play but I said no,
I never wanted back in there again
She began to whine and beg
I looked away; thoughts of that day filled my mind
I thought of you, and how I could have lost her
She is so wonderful; I hope you regret not being here
Holding in my tears I gave my little girl a hug
Told her we’d stay to play for just a little while
She was wondering why I was crying,
I told her how much I love her and how special she is,
And that I’m so lucky to have her

When she smiles she reminds me of you and the good times we shared together
I watched her play, and thought about things I haven’t in a long time
I want to make sure you know, I’m sorry
I didn’t mean it, this wasn’t supposed to happen
I was only trying to stop you, trying to protect myself and our baby
I never wanted to hurt you
But I was pregnant; hurting me was hurting her too

Young love, so naive
What was once my fairytale became my biggest nightmare
I carried so much hope until the very end
Kept telling myself one day you’d change
Wanted that man I fell in love with, the man I thought you were

You never wanted her; could have just left us
Instead you’d rather make me suffer,
Hurting me is one thing, but I had to put my daughter first
No one’s at fault for the pregnancy,
You didn’t want a baby because this was so soon after we got married
You thought the baby was a mistake, she was a blessing but you missed out

You were in a good mood that night, well you were pretending
You never wanted her, now I see you only tricked me into believing you ever did
That night we went for a late night walk in the park like we always loved to do
Me, you, and our baby inside my tummy walking along the trail
We were having a good time
We came across the creek and stopped at the bridge
We looked into the water and listened to the frogs croaking
Your cell phone rang and interrupted
Said it was a business call, and walked away
I didn’t believe you; plus it was too late at night
I knew if I said anything you would start hitting me
I heard you laughing and the way you were talking,
Right then I became aware of what was going on

Your “business call” was taking forever
I knew she was really your girlfriend
And all sense of hope for our future together suddenly vanished
Finally you got off the phone and came over
I asked you about your new girl, and you started hitting me
I tried running away,
But you continued punching me in the face until I fell to the ground

You turned away and sat on the edge staring down at the water,
Watching it flow like we always used to do together
I was beat up and worried about the baby, and you hurting me again
I knew I had to get away, but wasn’t sure if I was strong enough

I remember lifting my head and seeing a cinder brick just a few feet away
This was my only chance, there was no other choice
I stood up as quietly as I could, and walked a few steps over
Sitting there you called the girl again and started talking
It really startled me; I’m surprised I didn’t make any noise
I was so beat up, and was really tired
I could hear dirt crunching beneath my shoes,
I was right behind you; you finally heard me and turned around
I caught a glance of your face; you wanted to tear me to shreds
The brick was already above you, I hit it over your head

You began to tumble over the edge of the bridge
Falling into the water
I didn’t know if you were conscious or not
But I knew I had to get out, and didn’t want to risk getting hurt again
I ran out of park and as fast as I could and when I found a phone I called 911

It turns out the brick had knocked you unconscious, and you drowned
I didn’t get into trouble, it was self defense
I wanted to make sure you know I’m sorry and I never meant for this to happen

I watched my little girl play in the park today
I was glad she brought me back
To see her playing, laughing and smiling
Makes me feel so happy and it makes me think, and realize so many things

But this wasn’t my fault, nothing ever was
It’s all your fault; you’re the one to blame
And you’re not here to make me feel guilty
I did the right thing, and put my little girl first